Sunday, November 21, 2010


Hey all! My name is vanesa, with one s and one n..not an usual name for vanessa or vannesa. But that was the name that my father given to me when i was born. That's my name that written in my birth certificate : V-A-N-E-S-A. Many people consider that name is not important. "Apalah arti sebuah nama" that what Indonesian people usually say. But I think name is important. When parents give name to their kids, conciously or not, they put their hope and dreams about what they want their children to become in the future.

In "name for babys" book, vanesa has meaning : butterfly.( I don't know if my dad know about this or not when he was given me this name, I have innitiatives to find my name meaning by myself). Butterfly is an flying insect that has a beautiful-colorfull body. But, to become that beautifull, the butterfly must  pass the process. Every butterfly has life cycle : egg-larva-puppa-adult.

Butterfly eggs are protected by a hard-radged outer layer of shell, called the chorion. This is lined with a thin coating of wax which prevents the egg from drying out before the larva has had time to fully develop. So do I when I was a baby, and also in my childhood, I was under protection of my parents. They take care of me to preparing me face the real life.

Butterfly larvae, or catterpilars, spend practically all of their time in search of food. This is me when I was teenagers. Searching for who I am, searching for indentity. Still doing that until now, actually. Call me labile. I can accept it.

The larva transforms into a pupa by anchoring itself to a substrate and moulting for the last time. The pupa is usually incapable of movement, although some species can rapidly move the abdominal segments or produce sounds to scare potential predators. This is when I will enter the worst experinces of my life. This part will be suck. Going to this phases soon! It's already start I think. But I'm still at the doorstep.

The adult butterfly is also called imago. Imago is a strong beautifull butterfly that ready to fly. This is my destination. To become someone that strong, who ready spread my wings and fly.

I was born to become adult butterfly that shaped and processed by God through life. And I can't through all the phases without God, my family, and my friends.
Ok dad, your little girl a little wiser now,hahaha.You should be proud.

By the way,this is my first post.To people who read this : I hope you like it. ^^

Vanesa Indrawan


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  2. nice post, I like your post..^^
    I like meaning of your name.
    Likely you are beautiful as an butterfly.
    keep posting.

  3. I would still love you even if your name meaning is that most annoying insect mosquito, sister

    Keep writing!

    Your Grateful Little Sister